Ya know, I have been out of church for over a year now, and I have to let ya know how I feel...Here is thing its kinda funny the way things happen, But, my whole life now is about being free!!! My whole life's devotion now is not seeing my family sitting in a fema camp ,standing up for my rights as a parent, and a person, protecting my amendment rights at whatever the cost! I am so sick of my whole life being pushed around, and constantly under someone telling me what to do! i am being me, and if you don't like it, well too bad! I am no here for you, I have to do what I need to do, to get where ever it is, I need to be! I am so sick of people, especially the "church" telling me I am in rebellion for not doing what I am told, If i listen to something other that what is played at church, I am bad, or if I shop at certain stores, or If I give to other charities, its wrong!!! That is not Jesus, that is man!! I refuse to follow that doctrine of the world, and you you what I do is worldly? Its amazing I was always in rebellion, but when you pointed something out, ohh, well I was the one in the hot seat!! Some will say I need to let it go, and I have let the pain go of what has been done to me..but you can forgive, but not forget, and its just life, I believe God has us in certain seasons, and my season was over! Its like this, all my church life, all I was looking for was acceptance ,and trust, and I could not find either anywhere I went!! They would only trust you so much, if they needed someone to watch the kids, which I in fact loved,and believe that is where God wanted me to be, but there was never any trust! No one would trust me with anything , I was given an umbilical cord, and everytime, was told to give the baby back! Its really sad when so called Christians cant even trust you with the calling God placed in you! But, it sucks, and life goes on, but I need to talk about it, because, being un churched has taught me soooo much! Yes, at first I was lonely, I was sad, and yes, even cried over it! The people that said, and still even say they loved you, kicked you to the curb without even asking your opinions, never got a phone call, not even a flippin email asking if I was ok! Not one church that I left or was kicked out of ever gave me a phone call, or even an email!That's just sad! Someone tells you how much they care about you, and ya never hear from the again..pretty sad isn't it? But, to most I sound like a hurt little Christian, but really I am hurt, but I am alive, I am awake, I can post whatever I want, listen to whoever I want, go shop wherever I want, and I am free, I never had this while in church, I was always tied down by stupid man made rules, and meetings, and the feelings of never ever ever being good enough!!!No one ever would let me in there circle, I had to prove myself, and even after years of proving, still, not good enough, well guess what, I now know ,God says I am and have always been good enough, they were just to blind in there own man made religious junk to see that!! So, life goes on..and here I sit, not caring anymore what others think,..I do my thing,at home, church is just a building where people gather, We are the church..Jesus is inside, and he has never left!!!The holy Spirit has never left, I am not a heathen, nor backslidder, or any of the other pet names the unchurchers get from there rebellion!LOL..anyways...I am for the most part happy,and content with where my life is now! The chains are gone, I been set free!!!! Whoo hoo,,it feels great!!!:O)
Who's wit me??:O)
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