So, I have been doing a lot of thinking lately, and through watching a certain tv show, gaining sooo much knowledge on how to attack a certain area of my life. I finally think I got it.I think I know what i need to do, I just gotta actually get up and do it.Its so easy to say ,yeah, tomorrow Imma get up,and go run, and feel great, I know that's prolly not the case. I have issues in my life that need to be dealt with, and it started last night with my moms, just opening up and talking about some things really just opened up a new thing in side me, it was kinda weird, but very eye opening. 

 I always see people making excuses, no matter what ya tell them, there is always some excuse or another, of why they can't do something, well I think I am learning, not everyone is ready to face there demons, let's face it, they can be quite scary! But, we can't let someone else's excuses stop us from doing what we our selves need to do! We always hold back on our dreams, and our things in our lived because of other people, other people actually can make an excuse for us to not do something!! That was learned tonight, like a light bulb went off in my head,like wow!! Its like everytime I watch this show, I get new revelations, about me, that's the weird part, I learn something new about myself!! All I gotta say is I thank God for meeting Chris Powell, he is a lifesaver to so many, and  such a powerful role model in so many lives. I know that just like him, when I get to be where I feel comfortable being, I am also gonna give back, so many people in this world always take and take, and take, its so amazing to me, when some one is willing to take time away from there lives, there families, to help some one else. We live in such a selfish world, its refreshing. Me and my mom and sis have goals in life, and we are gonna embark on something so amazing, I ain't going anywhere until I see that rope at the finish line, my sis is running her first 5k, she has a baby, after the doc telling her don't expect to have any children, because of all the meds she was on as a younger child. She loses weight, and gets pregnant. 

 That's another area, I have been thinking about..If you don't know me, I am not one to go to the doctors, unless I am dying..lol! I don't believe in giving the medical community my money for some drug they can have me addicted to, and live on forever, so I go maybe once a year! Here is the thing, for those of you who are always at the docs, and nothing is working, try something else! I firmly believe this body given to us by God was meant to heal itself, without the aid of Americanized drugs, all these drugs are thrown at us for every little thing, there is always some new thing on the market. There is nothing wrong with seeking other things. But, its really starts with us, our taking care of what God gave us! 

 Why do we put all our trust and money into these people, and hand all the money to these drug companies?? Prescription meds kill thousands of people a year!! Its scary, and un needed!!

 Well, that's all I am gonna say about that, I am up, and can't sleep, I have been trying this meletonin, which of course don't work as good as nyquil..lol!! But, I can imagine what all the years of nyquil taking has started to do to my liver!! So, I shall write, and read, as I normally do, till I start to drift off to dreamland..till next time....:O)