chicken crispers, tears and veggies..

So, today my hubby wanted to go to chilis, well,I know my favorite meal is at chilis, so I was like naaa..I would rather not,so anyway, I caved in,and we went, so I already know what I was gonna get, a nice low calorie meal. So, we sit down, I did get a nice iced tea, instead of water, we order, so I got the nice grilled chicken on multigrain bread, and fresh steamed broccoli, and what does my hubby order????? My favorite meal, so as I am sitting at the table, stairing at my juicy fired chicken tenders,my sopping with buttered corn, and the grease ladened french fries, I almost started to cry, not at the thought of not having my favorite items, but the thought of my own husband who told me he would never do that to me , he done it, he orders my favorite thing, and eats it in front of me! I couldn't believe I actually sat there, as his lips smacked the yummy juicy fried goodness, here i sit with a grilled chicken and broccoli. Then it hit me. So after me staring at that dish many times, wanting to yank the food outta his mouth and eat it all for myself, I looked down at my plate, and my food just got the best taste on earth to me! My grilled chicken had some kinda light lemon juice stuff on it, my broccoli had a tiny bit of pepper, and something on it, idk what happened , but I began to enjoy what I had in front of me, and looked at that plate as it was gross!!!How could I even think of doing that to my body! That plate is what got me here!! Not my husband! He never forced the food into me! I did it!! Now, its only been a short time on this journey, but for one of the first times after eating my meal, I felt good, no gurgles, or feeling totally sick from all the grease, I actually felt kinda clean!!lol! Its a great feeling! To leave the table satisfied, not overstuffed like a turkey!

 I am o proud of myself, I could have ordered whatever I wanted on that menu, but I didn't!! I coulda got soda, but I didn't, yesterday when my body wanted me to go to bed ,and sleep, I didn't, and all this makes my emotions run soo high, like wow!!!I am accomplishing so much in such little time,i am amazing myself!! I am just having kinda a go me day!! I am not as sore, I am feeling soo good, a little tired, but my body is feeling good!!! I never thought I would even actually get off my fat ass and do anything for myself, everything has been for everyone else, this is for me!! I wanna run, I wanna be able to fit into a ride, I wanna be able to play and run around with my kids, I wanna be able to walk, and be able to breathe!!! I am just having a me day, and ya know what i think its ok!!!!:O)

 So, praise God!!!:O)

cures and band-aids..

Last night I was listening to a DR speak on the benefits of herbs, and supplements, and I was blown away! In this country we don't cure diseases, we treat  the symptoms, if you have a heart problem, we give a beta blocker, blood thinner, ect, instead of finding out what is missing to make the heart no longer function the way it should! Our way of treating is sadly wrong! If you have cancer you get chemo therapy, which a Journal of medicine document, released, said, chemo did not work in 97% of the time!!!!Then why the heck is it still used?? Why do American doctors not like the fact that we use things such as cannabis as a cure?? Cancer places are popping up like popcorn all over! Cancer is big business to big pharma!

 It sickens me how we are treated like animals in most cases, just to make someone rich! How many drugs are you on? How many of them are curing your diseases? Think about it! What drugs are you taking?What are they doing? The doc gives you one drug, which leads to another, and another!!! You take the one drug, but that makes ya cough, so ya need this drug, which leads to constipation, so you need this drug, its a never ending circle! 

 So, where's the cure? Well, for some it may be weight loss!Yes, its that easy! I hear so many people blaming this and that for there weight! Yet,when the weight is lost, they are miraculously healed of the diseases! We as humans always need that blame factor, always need to blame our issues on someone,or something. 

 Well,I am here to tell you weather you believe me or not, your issue is not your parents fault, or grandparents fault, its yours!!!Nothing is hereditary! it is because your body is not getting what it needs to perform correctly! You have a heart issue, its not because your mom did too, its because your not getting a vitamin, or your not eating the way you should be. Something is missing!God made these bodies of ours, and he don't make junk! 

 Yes, trusting some person that went to school longer than you did, and got a degree , may be easier for you, it may be easier for you to just trust,and take that pill, or many pills!! But, do you even know what you are taking? Do you really know what is in those pills? Do you know what they are doing? They usually just mask the symptoms, or make it livable!

 So many people I know are on so many pills, just so they can function! Without looking for the cure, you put all your trust in this one person,it is just so sad, that people would rather just take a pill, then actually do some research on the subject,and find out what is really going on in there own bodies! 

 I have been on a mission, to find out as much info about anything I can get my hands on about things! I once told someone about the yeast in there body, they looked at me like I had 3 heads!!! Instead of taking something to get rid of the yeast, well the doc said it was this!!!! Well,go ahead and listen to that doctor,enjoy having the pain, and taking all your drugs! 

  My question is this...the sh** has hit the fan, no one is working, the dollar is dead, you have no money to buy your drugs, what do you do then?Really, think about that one!! Will it be easier to stock up on vitamins and minerals, or try to find black market drugs? 

 So, that's my soapbox for the day....