chicken crispers, tears and veggies..

So, today my hubby wanted to go to chilis, well,I know my favorite meal is at chilis, so I was like naaa..I would rather not,so anyway, I caved in,and we went, so I already know what I was gonna get, a nice low calorie meal. So, we sit down, I did get a nice iced tea, instead of water, we order, so I got the nice grilled chicken on multigrain bread, and fresh steamed broccoli, and what does my hubby order????? My favorite meal, so as I am sitting at the table, stairing at my juicy fired chicken tenders,my sopping with buttered corn, and the grease ladened french fries, I almost started to cry, not at the thought of not having my favorite items, but the thought of my own husband who told me he would never do that to me , he done it, he orders my favorite thing, and eats it in front of me! I couldn't believe I actually sat there, as his lips smacked the yummy juicy fried goodness, here i sit with a grilled chicken and broccoli. Then it hit me. So after me staring at that dish many times, wanting to yank the food outta his mouth and eat it all for myself, I looked down at my plate, and my food just got the best taste on earth to me! My grilled chicken had some kinda light lemon juice stuff on it, my broccoli had a tiny bit of pepper, and something on it, idk what happened , but I began to enjoy what I had in front of me, and looked at that plate as it was gross!!!How could I even think of doing that to my body! That plate is what got me here!! Not my husband! He never forced the food into me! I did it!! Now, its only been a short time on this journey, but for one of the first times after eating my meal, I felt good, no gurgles, or feeling totally sick from all the grease, I actually felt kinda clean!!lol! Its a great feeling! To leave the table satisfied, not overstuffed like a turkey!

 I am o proud of myself, I could have ordered whatever I wanted on that menu, but I didn't!! I coulda got soda, but I didn't, yesterday when my body wanted me to go to bed ,and sleep, I didn't, and all this makes my emotions run soo high, like wow!!!I am accomplishing so much in such little time,i am amazing myself!! I am just having kinda a go me day!! I am not as sore, I am feeling soo good, a little tired, but my body is feeling good!!! I never thought I would even actually get off my fat ass and do anything for myself, everything has been for everyone else, this is for me!! I wanna run, I wanna be able to fit into a ride, I wanna be able to play and run around with my kids, I wanna be able to walk, and be able to breathe!!! I am just having a me day, and ya know what i think its ok!!!!:O)

 So, praise God!!!:O)